Sometimes I feel like I reach for nothing And I imagine disappearing completely Surrendering to a time Of uncertainty And a little bit of well earned Pride.
My life in Chicago is glittery and full of grit Papa never responded to me Everyone gets ready for little brothers graduation That I decided to avoid This time.
The 1AM hour grows near I know I must retire to bed And forgive myself for the ways within which I was not at my best today.
For a moment there I shined because I hoped the men Would tell me I mattered.
I don't weigh my worth in the palms Of careless humans anymore I don't weigh my worth In anyone's hands but my own.
A photo of me From when I was 14 years old Surprised me tonight I spun him in circles Because its funs to play poker.
I remember before you left I could feel that everything was about to change Somedays I feel so strong and mighty And others I still can't believe the little Big things I've lost.
There is a comfort to the silence of the growing night I wish I could go to bed at more reasonable hours I hope and long for so much Forever And for always.