The worst feeling in the world. It slowly eats away at my mind Until that’s all I have left. The guilt.
The hardest part about dealing with it is I know it’s something I’ve caused. The difference between feeling and being.
It’s my fault. I could have prevented it. But it’s too late now. All that’s left are what ifs.
What if I would’ve thought before I said that? What if I let you make your own decision? What if I wasn’t here? What if I would’ve answered that phone call? What if I really do have a choice?
I wouldn’t have hurt so many people. You wouldn’t be filled with guilt. You wouldn’t want to die. I would’ve been able to say goodbye. Maybe I caused all of this.
I can't fool myself. Not again. It's all true. Every part of it. I need to man up and face my jury.
On the counts of being an ******* being too domineering being a mistake and a reminder being selfish and being what you never wanted me to be