Are you awake?
Are you here?
Are you listening?
Because I have a question.

Am I pretty?

I know it sounds very stereotypical
For a girl my age
To be asking this question
But I really am wondering

Personally,
I think that I’m kind of pretty
I think my eyes are kind
And a nice blue

I think that though my face
Is a bit chubby,
I have a nice ****** structure

But I said that I think that
I’m average looking
Which was how I felt at that moment
And though it sounds odd
You agreed,
And it really, really hurt

Because you are SO pretty
And my best friend
There’s no one else I can ask
Without feeling REALLY awkward

I wish I was pretty
I wish I was thinner
I wish I had cuter clothes
I wish I was extroverted
I wish
That I was
Everything that I am not


Being in my body is torture.