someone called my poems beautiful

they're anything but beautiful
these words that i write,
they are the swirling thoughts in my head turned to words and given life

i can assure you that there is no beauty in these thoughts;
it is a nightmare.

these poems that i write are not beautiful

they are painful
they sting
i cry when i write every single one
because nothing i write about is beautiful, is is flawed
it is pain

my poems are painful

i hurt for every single person who can relate to these poems
because you can relate to this pain

but just because you can relate poems that are painful
and just because you write poems that aren't beautiful
doesn't mean that you aren't beautiful

you may feel painful thoughts
but the most beautiful souls always do

so this isn't to say that i'm not beautiful
and that you're not beautiful
because we ARE
but sometimes we have to write about what isn't beautiful
to get it out
and let our beauty shine ever brighter than before

if that's even possible