I had a nightmare
That I kept trying to call you
But you wouldn’t answer
The phone would ring and ring
Each dial tone blares through my speaker
Evolving into the sounds of war sirens
And tonight, I’ve lost this battle

Some nights you crawl into bed with me
We lay our heads on our pillows
Facing each other
Talking about our future
And you tell me how much you miss me
You look at me the same way you used to
You promise you’ll never leave
You promise to keep all your promises
But, we both know that you break promises
As often as children break their arms
Jumping off of swing sets

Other nights, you tell me that I am useless
A constant repetition of turned backs,
Slammed doors
And apathetic stares through car windows
You tell me I annoy you but you don’t want me to leave
You know, It took me a long time to learn
That “I don’t want you to go”
Doesn’t mean, “I want to stay with you forever”
Because, my hand on your cheek
wasn’t enough for you
When the upper-hand
was always more important

And the battle continues
The sirens ring on
The things I always wanted to say to you
Still never get said
Not even in my sleep

The dreams may change
But it always ends the same
You leave me
I wake up alone
You wake up in her arms.