I may have a heart that is broken in places
But at least I have a heart at all


Sometimes
I wince with pain when the past plays,
Like a film across my eyelids
Vision not without defect
But unblemished by regret

Now
I feel empty and hollow
Waking in the darkness

I've lost count of how many times
I've posed the question
‘Why did I not deserve the affection?’


I gave you passes as I gave you my heart,
In the kisses I returned
I thought you kept your heart
Closed away behind your ribs -

Perhaps you do.


Today
I will wash your sweat from my skin
And your kisses from my neck

Tonight
I will press down buttons in my alarm
For daylight hours

Tomorrow
I will smile and ask you how you are
I will sing songs walking alone
Down main roads


Is it
Freedom
or
Is it
Emptiness?
Who is who?
You and I*


I know,
The numb in my fingers and in my thoughts
Will pass

I would always chose
My hopeful broken heart
Over vacant space
A De-void
[I'd hoped to fill]


I should stop trying
To provoke
Barren hearts' growth

Turn away,
Mend myself

For I may have a heart,
That is broken in places
But at least I have a heart at all