It isn't what we had that keeps me up at night Those memories will stay with me It's what might have been, but drifted away All those things that will never be There is a resounding finality to it Sending chills down my spine A chapter closed, but not fully written A heart not fully mine I long for you in the deepest night when self-deception is not a choice I'd like to say I'm over you But I don't have a voice The words choke up, blocked by some burst of feelings in my throat Closed eyes, the world is gone I am on the sea, a lonely boat Sailing away from you, and your world I'll never come back home Your face follows me across the blue I realize it's all I'll ever know I wanted so much more! you and I We were what should have been And I long inside the mystery That will never have an end