i feel stuck
you tell me things
that break my heart.

i reach towards an
old, unwelcome, unfriendly,
habit.

she eats me alive,
begs me to come back to her,
like a siren calling my name at sea.

i'm a little destroyed
by what you told me last night,
when we were alone.

all i want is you,
and you don't want me
anymore.

because we're different.

well, she's tugging at my will,
dragging pieces of my mind
down
   down
      down.

i'm stuck in this hell,
here in my mind,
but its a reality for me.

i hide it well,
but how long                 up?
can i keep the walls

she wants to reunite us,
she urges me to drag
the edge across my skin.

she tells me, 'it will help',
'you will forget about
everything'.

i didn't.
and i'm still here.
in more pain than before.

she was a good distraction
while she lasted...


xoxo