I remember what it felt like being numb
Doing drugs until my brain falls dumb
Til I can’t feel all this awful pain
So I can ignore this ****** stain
Because having these feelings get you hurt
So it’s better to just put everything in the dirt
I stare in the mirror and ask myself a question
“Is it really worth risking all that depression”
Thinking about how I felt before you came
I don’t want things to go back to the same
But eventually one day everyone leaves
Lost in the woods staring at the trees
Decided to stop running away from my killer
Staring at the fragment of myself, a lil sinner
Myself and I fighting over control of me
Struggling to not let all my demons free
The better part of me is taking critical blows
He’s getting weaker and weaker and it shows
Evil me is staring down at myself with pride
The better part just broke off and died
I really thought we were gonna be forever
Our relationship was like a mild fever
I knew eventually our love would go away
Something that good will never stay
Now the evil part of me is going wild
“You really thought we’re gonna have a child”
I have this nightmare almost everyday
These demons in my mind I can’t seem to slay
I see you walking with our kid into the street
You get hit by a car and turn into piles of meat
That’s how fast it hit me that you’re gone
From my life you just decided to be withdrawn
I’m not myself anymore and I’m more broken
Feels like the will to live was just choken
Out my body just like these **** tears
I’ve been hurting for years and years
I just want my pain to come to an end
Looking for love in my best friend
Should’ve known I was gonna be played again
Got my head shredded to pieces like Glenn
don’t get that it’s a walking dead reference
Moved on because I wasn’t your preference
You made me be able not to fear death
Now I can’t wait until I take my last breath
I go back and forth between love and hate
I really wish hate would win that debate
Stuck in a dark place screaming my lungs out
Why can’t I hate you what’s this feeling about
I’m such a ******, a loser, an idiot
The pain I’m going through is hideous
I bet you don’t even care do you
Probably already moved into someone new
How’d my bestfriend spot get took in one day
Feeling like youre keeping secrets locked away
I don’t want to breathe anymore I hate it
Loving you or hating you my mind is split
Feel like putting a noose around my neck
Feel like letting you stab me in the back
Feel you already did that though
Said you loved me but it never does show
Someone come strangle this life out of me
Come put a shot in my skull let me fly free
I’m losing everyone and it’s not just us
I lost a friend that was like my little sister
I loved her to death and hell im gonna miss her
She always knew how to make my day better
I hope you know you completely broke me