Every single time you forget.
You forget how it makes your heart pound
You forget how it makes you short of breath
You forget how the fear spreads
through your whole body
How your heart
drops
How you feel the tears start
to form in your eyes
How your muscles tense up
wanting to make yourself as small as possible
You forget how awful it makes you feel.
But it's to late
You've done it
You've said it
And you tell yourself,
you'll remember next time.
You promise yourself,
you won't ever talk again.
But it never works
Because every single time you forget.