what I need is a pause
some time alone, to just myself
just a while to be the only soul
in a room, in a building, on my won
I'm surrounded, almost constantly
because I surround myself
if I'm alone, I'm lonely
I'm woefully ill-prepared
for having no one to talk to
when I have nothing to say
I need to be alone for once
but when I am, I give in
to the coldness, the freedom
the acknowledge no one because
No one's there
I'll invite people over,
we'll have a blast, I'm sure
but when they leave
I'm always left lonely once more
lonely is different than being alone
lonely is feeling nobody there
lonely is knowing someone could join you
lonely is not calling them anyway
alone is a fullness, being filled to the brim
alone is being the only you inside your head
alone is a comfort, a closeness a joy