made you a book of coupons one good, for each day "wash the car" or "put the dishes away"
but we fought that morning and i ran away, too stayed out hiding terrified of you
things were never the same home replaced by a freshly mounted circus whose starring act was me juggling your blame and it wasn’t the same! you can’t take love and turn it into a game! you can’t lay your claim! and claim to love me all the same!
because games cause accidents and accidents cause crashes and crashes come with smashes and smashes caused the cracks in my glass world of safety to appear no longer safe here
home where safety was no longer a guarantee get your comfort by hugging your knee no one who cares for you more than me
normalcy is chaos when we’re out of practice
normalcy opens up roads to baseline, just slightly above lifeline when it feels more like the punchline and I really wanna call a HOTLINE
nothing felt like it did the feelings in the objects and experiences around me suspended all normalcy PRETENDED tell everyone I’m alright! as I sink in fight after fight after fight
I split into two terrified of me after I was terrified of you sliding permanently out of my groove couldn’t even tell ya my next move
nothing felt like it did and so i took my book of coupons and i hid it between a book on growing up and a book on being young
i hoped you wouldn't see it and yet i hoped you would too
i hoped you would want to change i hoped you would want us to be good again that you'd take me up on my offer
I’d wash the car, I’d put the dishes away and we can be a family again