We talked about those great nights of love
Kinda started believing in a place up above
I went from not wanting to live to being scared to die
Now I’m sitting here writing wiping the tears out my eye
Thinking about how much pain my mom would go through if I finally ended it all
I’m sick and tired of life because all I do is cry, scream, and fall
On to my knees hoping there is a god to take my life away
I can’t keep going through so much pain every single day
I wish I could say I hate you but that’d be a lie
I guess hating you would help numb my pain inside
I just can’t seem to bring myself to do that
I wish I knew I could throw you away like a hat
But I’m just dying because I still love you
I’d do so many things to hear you say it too
Whatever happened to forever and always
Nothing last forever nowadays
I press the knife against my throat
Someone please come sacrifice me like a goat
I told myself I wouldn’t get this hurt
My phone vibrates I check to see if it’s you
But even if it is that **** hurts too
We were supposed to grow old together
Have kids and raise a pig together
Travel around and walk on beaches together
Had each other’s back like Bonnie and Clyde
Said You promise but I guess thats another lie
Broke my heart, my trust, and my soul
I’m just glad I don’t have to deal with this on my own
I want to give a special thanks to my guy Fidel
Without you my body would be found somewhere in a wishing well
I just don’t know if I can take much more
Now I wish you were just some little *****
So I wouldn’t have to be so upset
But you’re so perfect in my mindset
Last night I walked on a bridge and I thought about jumping
But then I thought what If this all blows over like it’s nothing
And we get back together and be happy once again
But now all think about is all this hurtful pain
So hey I know you read this
Don’t worry about me
I’m fine