Drenched in pain
yet we call ourselves free.
We swim in rivers of tears
& oceans of fear.
Using life jackets to keep us afloat
but the clutches of sin still pull us under.
We drift through time
living on borrowed hours.
One minute we are tough,
the next we cringe like cowards.
Our attention is given to wasted things
& to people who don't bother.
You think "you're alone"
over & over.
Where were you when I cried?
Where was that shoulder?
It is lost,
along with my mind.
Five years from now,
where will I be?

I don't even know where I am today.
a.n.p