Everything

I wish I knew everything I know now
before I blew everything with you.
I wish I could undo it all and start all
over again. “I’m sorry” seems so weak

and can’t hold a light to anything at all,
especially your loveliness. I confess it was
all my fault. I wish I knew the right words to say
to make your pain go away.  If only I had

the chance to resurrect this love
once more I’d gladly give up any days that remain
in my future for one solitary moment in time
when you were mine. I had everything. But

I understand, there’s nothing I can do.
I’ve tried. And I must accept your happiness doesn’t
depend on mine. I respect your honesty. I will live out
my years in a memory, when we were hand in hand,

and your body molded perfectly to mine. But I’ll
never have peace of mind. Because I can’t forget
everything we had before and what I did to make it
go away. Who knows if love will bloom,
again? It’s too soon. And not for me to say.