i wanted to thank you
for these good times
sharing drugs and
sleeping next to each other
after half a night of
*** and ****

but truth is
i feel like changing
yet another time

not because i'm bored or anything
it's just that
i can't fall to need someone again

i wanted to love
and be loved by someone
for as long as i can remember

you are here
exactly when i can't commit
i can only exist by your side
even though i like to
play with your hair
while you sleep

i can't tell you the whole truth
i can't say that i will always
fall in love
that this is just the way i am
but it doesn't mean it'll last
it just means that
for a little while
you were all i thought about

this is yet another reason for us
to no longer exist together

we belong apart
our bodies belong apart
our thoughts belong apart
until we can do something about it

i feel like we are a train crash
that if had happened
in a different context
would've put us on the tracks