hard to love hard to find the time unambitious obsessive compulsive the small details are repulsive reaching for anything to grab on to under water and blue you're always wondering what I'm up to stop saying you want to pick at my brain I pick at it enough on my own sometimes I feel that if I screamed loud enough I could burst myself into flames passion burns brighter than most things and winter was more than just a season it's a state of mind that I'm ready to shake off where there hell have I been the past three years? I don't recognize my body I don't recognize my mind I'm losing track of time but I'm on the upswing at least, I think I've got to swim, not sink