Dear Daddy


When did my neediness
become too much for you? When did the summer
breeze become a winter chill? Why did the magic go
nowhere? Why did never-never land suddenly


disappear? Why was I expected to grow-up
and out of your love? I could never move on without
your strength to hold and anchor me. That's when I drifted
in and out of states. I might be gifted but I'm nothing without


your embrace. I still need you, daddy, old as I am, married
as I am, with my own children. I still need our times at the park,
the mid-night phone calls, and to hunker down in your warm lap. You were my first love. A woman never forgets her first real male


role model. I was crazy alright. But your love came with a very
high price. You were the only one who knew me at all. What am I
supposed to do now? Who's going to wipe my tears? Who's going to share a slice of heaven pie? Who's going to hang the moon, the

sun and stars? Who's going to pull me back to shore when I go
out too far? Who daddy? You know you're irreplaceable. I'll always be daddy's little girl. I'll always need you. You slipped away too soon. We didn't have enough time. Time robbed me of

everything except the memory. Some days this memory comforts me. Some days this memory burns a hole in me. Some days I smile when I think of "used to be".  Somedays I cry. I cried today when I realized nothinghad changed. I'll never grow-up and out of your love. Never, No, Never Daddy, I Am as I Was.


Love,
Buttercups