It has been very long I haven't bled. Well, not on the outside at least I've been bleeding internally. This hemorrhage inside me, I've been trying to put it off for so long. I must be in a shock now That's why my fingers grow numb as I type. So much has happened So much has been lost So much has changed Friends have been lost And it's not one of those pesky memes, Where they talk about best friends becoming strangers. No, am talkin about real loss. The kind that keeps you up at night The kind where you can't imagine or even believe sometimes That you can never ever let them know About what just reminded you of them When you miss someone really Whom you can never get back (Not at least in this world) Something like that Can make you immensely grateful For the ones you got now So even when there's a dumb argument The ego and pride holding you up Can break completely Cause you don't wanna lose them again Never again So when you snap unintentionally At someone you care for That can eat you up inside It can make you hate yourself, Hate your hormones, Hate your condescending mind, Hate your emotions. Coming back to that pesky meme I wrote about earlier Even those friends who have become strangers now That can be gnawing too Because you realize You could've done better So **** much better
And so I've bled. After so long It feels weird As I barely write something That doesn't rhyme But this isn't writing It is bleeding.