I remember When I use to sneak outside at night Wrapped in a jacket With and iPod and a chair I'd sit on the deck for hours Singing Waiting Singing Shivering Until I felt the tears come And I would cry until I nearly suffocated Surprised at how long I could hold my breath I cried so hard I bit the steel back of the chair To keep myself from screaming Until I felt my fears retreating And I slid open the door And went to bed To cry no more