''you knew who i was from the start and i know you now,''
you're only partially wrong, at the start I knew you, i knew where we stood. But now the closer we get the more lost i become.
you struck me at the most unexpected time you were a bold strike of lightning hitting me dead on, you buckled me and rewired my mind while i was down. i woke up with your electricity in my veins.
i hate you for changing the world around me, i hate that you started something in me im not strong enough to finish i hate that you'll leave and ill look for you in every stranger.
i admire the way you are unapologetically yourself and how you believe in god, despite everything, despite how you yourself are a beacon of hope and power. the only one ive ever known.
and i don't half love the way you challenge me, push me to stand on my own two feet and start fires in the void parts of me but it terrifies me, how you're burning up everything that makes me myself.