As I awoke to the sun outside The heavens dried without hope in the sky I reflect on the sunlight that burns my blind eyes Kissing my children goodbye Since the devine clarity is clearly unobtainable And the memorable moments have all gone and disappeared I light my cigarette to blacken the tar in my beaten lungs It calms my nerves I used but only 8 of my 9 lives What can possibly cure me?? I question myself For i alone am my own judge am jury With one foot already in the grave I let my suppressed emotions unleashed on an empty page So as i wait to prove the truth of the after life Weather it be complete and utter darkness or the beauty of the everlasting light I want a simple and peaceful death