Im stuck in my head
Ive heard everything you said
Ive done my best to put my emotions to bed
But they keeping getting the better of me
Yeah, how ****** of me
To keep letting these thoughts control me
But what i need is someone to hold me
Let me know they adore me

All my life ive been the door stop
Or you could say the cheap pad lock that every key unlocks
But im that heavy door that wont budge
you can keep pounding and keep screaming you love me
But the words wont budge me

Dont buddy me
Ive closed off
Every open door walled off
Scared the next person is gonna crawl off
Crawl off with a peice of me that i wont get back
Thinking of it sends me into a panic attack
So i just grab another mask off the rack
And pretend like my mind isnt under attack
And that putting it lightly
Even with you standing beside me
The darkness feeds inside of me
Growing stronger
The grip i had is no longer