sunshine and smiles
you’re everything I’m not

Your energy exceeds mine
your beauty overpowers my brokenness

I want to soak it in and find my peace in your arms

but I can see the image so clearly
I can see it as it burns in my brain

my thin frame barely enough to make out the hospital gown, I’m screaming through the tears, fighting against my own self

and there you are, like a shadow
watching from afar
Your face cemented in horror
you never signed up for this kind of sickness
The one you can’t ever really see
But I’m too afraid to let it get far enough for you to ever understand