There was a time A time within which my hair was shorter My patience longer And my desire to make it last Tighter.
I danced among wolves there Whistled in the thorns Made friends with the trickles of blood Flooding down my legs Onto my ankles Pinching up and down my thighs Just hoping and waiting Just baiting and flaking Because you were what was there At the time.
I coughed up glass And syringes filled with pink powder And surrendered to moments Of wannabe bliss Because you were what was there At the time.
She seems to have found more aptitude For your ******* Than I was willing I remember the way your voice shook When you called me on the phone After I exclaimed I would never be her I would never treat you like her I would just be Really gone.
I sage everywhere and everything Moments of feeling so past it For the darkness of pain to return Like a fleet of starved seagulls In a circle I threw them pieces of bread Like I did as a child Like I begged for you to see me To treat me with love, respect Even in the moments where you Were at your most deceitful Lost Do you remember when we read poems to one another?
There is no reading of poems now Not to you My ink carries on But not for you Because you were what was there For a time And now you are no longer.