a black cowl is over her deliberately shuttered in an unlit windowless room so when I open my eyes she is invisible, a lemon whiff peeling away, a piano c note on a whole beat struck three times, to tingle skin, ping the tuning ear, enough to know-now-ow-w the first great rain of her, the steps to her now a thousand clear receding lights causing blinks needing their very own cowls, leaving her-er-r r last lost space