You asked me how I was doing.
Immediately my throat caught and my eyes watered.

I felt lonely.
I felt as if you weren't my friend anymore; that I had been traded for someone else.
You asked if I had replaced you and I said "Never."
Maybe you had replaced me.
But I never dared to say it.
Because I knew that you would also say "Never."

I felt lost.
I felt scared and once again like that little girl sitting in her room with nothing but stuffed animals as her friends.
I had lost my best friend.
But I didn't dare steal your happiness.
Because that's what I thought you were; happy without me.

I felt weak.
I felt strange without anyone to talk to, so I talked to myself and bottled up my feelings.
You didn't listen anymore.
But I didn't dare to try to attract your attention.
Because I knew that you wouldn't notice.

So I blinked back the tears.
"I'm fine."