There's no inclination for you to feel anything for me, but sadly truth is I'm struggling. I've been tugging onto tissues hoping my tears will stop waging war on my cheeks. Did you know, I didn't sleep? I haven't slept since I said goodbye, ok maybe that's a lie- maybe an hour here or there but enough for me to hope to dream of you; but I don't, it's ripping me up London girl, I'm one step of a ledge I've never been on, never knew it'll take this long to jump, and I've never known it to hurt this much. I know you don't need to care, but tonight and last night, I've been dreaming of you ... Back here....Back there... Back to square one....with me. Silly dreams, I know. My medic is no where to be seen, and I'm one day further from her. My medic is no where to be seen, and tonight I won't sleep again.
Medic, medic, I'm so pathetic, I struggle to accept it that you're gone, and I'm holding onto something that isn't there anymore. I love you, and oh how I wish you did too.