I'm staring up at the sky from a hole six feet down even while the rest assume that I'm more than deceased a harsh word that's still true ideation has consumed remnants of a loving life now only found in living souls
return me to eternal rest even while my life is hoaxed sharing space with a world then waiting for the dirt to fall the shell resides while I weep tears transparent on my skin the drowning have a better chance to survive beyond the flood
even while I sleep-walk stagger upright for a time evoking forms may confuse when my desires finally fruit if you chose to turn away please put the marker on my grave while I look up at the sky just one last time as I pass.
The poem “Staring Up” is a sad view of suicidal ideation. I had a conversation with a friend regarding the normative view of life. People assume that other people will, short of a terrible event, will show up from day-to-day. A person with ideation can never promise this outcome, even as the world expects the previous regularity.