I aim to please
But I feel I won't succeed

I want to win this war
Deep within my core

This is my fear
at unease
As I try to please
This is what I want you to hear

I tell myself not to surrender
I feel like this is pure failure
Inefficiency in this adventure

I don't write this just for the trend
I write this only to pretend
That with these words I shall be on the mend

I feel so overwhelmingly selfish ungrateful
and these actions against myself so shameful

As I pull and I tug at these sleeves know that I am not harmed
So please, please don't be alarmed

For I am selfish and ungrateful
and just your average stereotypical
Self couscous girl
girl that is ever so cynical
Who writes
to
hide her world


I will deny  
That its all one big lie

and no one, no one will ever know
So take this shovel and bury this deep, deep down below