I don't understand why do I always end up with a guy who treats me like i am less then what i am i fight depression everyday and for him to add more to my life is sad but i dont know how to leave growing up not knowing what love really was... So does that make me dumb **** i feel so ashamed to be myself i feel so depressed being around him he calls me fat and tells me other girls are beautiful he remains me of my abusive father i am only 23 years old and i am feeling so ashame to be me i never felt alive i stay in a box Where no one will see or him me I'm sorry that i am always writting these ****** poems it's okaye if nobody reads them