You want to know what I want?
I want to wear socks to bed.
I want to wear socks to bed and pretend that I'm in love with you.
You're making this too hard.
You're making this too hard even with my lack of emotions and your lack of anything I need.
But, I am finding myself jolted awake in the middle of the night with my socks kicked off.
My socks are kicked off with my bare feet absorbing the warmth of yours.
I have a sinking feeling that I am no longer pretending.
This is not what I wanted.