If you would only ask
I’d tell you I still care.
If you would only look my way
You’d see that I’m still here.
If you would only meet my eyes
You’d see what I say is true.
Instead I feel that you despise
All and everything I do.
If you would only treat me
The way you treat the guys
I’d be as happy as could be
But you don’t even try.
If you would only speak
A few kind and caring words
It’d be easier to turn my cheek
Instead of hearing what I’ve heard.
If only you would disappear
And fade away from sight.
It would be my very worst fear
And a strange source of delight.
If you could only see how—
I suffer when you’re near.
How everyday I solemnly vow
Not to cry a single tear.
If you could only know
How I feel inside.
You would see you’ve hurt me so,
But instead I smile and hide.
You will never ask.
And I will never tell.
You will never look my way
And see that I’m not there.
(unfinished)