“You’re hiding something from me” are the words I am told when I am acting differently or I distance myself from your loving arms. “You’re speaking to someone else” are the words that are carved into my hands day in and day out.

I carry us both across the velvet green river and although my legs may shake and the sweat begins its dance down my face and neck, I still carry the life boat we call love and hope to make it to the other side.

They say there is no you without me but perhaps there is no Me without.. Me. I have lost who I am and who I was meant to be, I do not blame you for the selfish acts you never meant to radiate towards me.

Why must it be assumed that I am an unfaithful lover when my tired soul reaches out to rest. I am unfaithful to myself and not a lover worth fighting for.

Let me search and wander until I find the person I lost a little while ago, but while I do that, see that I do love you, I am just more tired than I have ever been.

Savannah