if it's that late night walk with your pack of cigarettes that you bummed off a drunken homeless man, do it.
if it's that blade you've thrown away numerous times but always find yourself digging through that bathroom trash to retrieve the comfort it once gave you, do it.
if it's that alcohol that you stole after waiting for hours for your parents to finally go to sleep, do it.
and do it until you can't do it anymore. do it until it fixes you. or do it until you realize there are better ways.