Mar 2019
Was really looking forward to writing a real poem but the block was REAL.. so I'm about to drop a freestyle
I hope you'll be able to figure the title out. If you are able to... I'll give you $100.
Let me tell you something, this is how Moses felt when God showed him the promise land but he couldn't step foot there.
There are so many things I want to say to you; I would tell you every day for the rest of my life if I could.
Last time I felt like I was willing to give someone a fair share of my gifts was 6 years ago. The way I am drawn to you is unexplainable that it's really difficult for me to just say things to you and let them go.
I feel like I have to keep explaining myself because I wasn't done with you. You're killing me! and it feels like you are not affected at all. I get that I made the call but I wish I knew how you really feel deep down, not just the rough-surfaced things you throw in my face like "here *****, this is all I can offer. Take it or leave it"
And I get it, we're all different when it comes to self-expression but I would never be at rest if I don't know how you've felt or feel.. you've hinted on certain things on different occasions but like I said they're all "here *****" moments.
I really wish I came at a good time in your life so that I can experience more of your beautiful heart and mind. You are a great person and you deserve endless joy and happiness. I wish people and things didn't bite more than they could chew so that I could experience that hidden beauty fully. So that I could teach you how well you are deserving of unfailing love and affection.
You gave me a fraction of yourself and I appreciate that. It just wasn't enough to keep me going. I wish you could've met me halfway and I was able to predict the future.
Last time I cried over a guy was in 2007 (, foolish adolescent years-and you know those hormones don't play). Congrats *****! In 12 years, you did it. See You're special?
I pray that one day you will be able to see that you're worthy of every good thing that comes your way, that you would look beyond the things eating you up so that you can shine your light and bless the world with your gifts.
Lastly, I LOVE YOU. I love you from the bottom of my heart. And it's not the romantic type of love. I love you like you're my twin or brother. I just want to see you win, be happy, all of that. I truly do love you.
Btw, I miss the *** and your kisses so bad. I hope one day I can stop being a wussy around you so I can get my back blown out for fun. Also not gonna lie, I was hella salty when you went to the bar without me. but it's cool.
I hope you'll be able to figure the title out. If you are able to... I'll give you $100.
Let me tell you something, this is how Moses felt when God showed him the promise land but he couldn't step foot there.
There are so many things I want to say to you; I would tell you every day for the rest of my life if I could.
Last time I felt like I was willing to give someone a fair share of my gifts was 6 years ago. The way I am drawn to you is unexplainable that it's really difficult for me to just say things to you and let them go.
I feel like I have to keep explaining myself because I wasn't done with you. You're killing me! and it feels like you are not affected at all. I get that I made the call but I wish I knew how you really feel deep down, not just the rough-surfaced things you throw in my face like "here *****, this is all I can offer. Take it or leave it"
And I get it, we're all different when it comes to self-expression but I would never be at rest if I don't know how you've felt or feel.. you've hinted on certain things on different occasions but like I said they're all "here *****" moments.
I really wish I came at a good time in your life so that I can experience more of your beautiful heart and mind. You are a great person and you deserve endless joy and happiness. I wish people and things didn't bite more than they could chew so that I could experience that hidden beauty fully. So that I could teach you how well you are deserving of unfailing love and affection.
You gave me a fraction of yourself and I appreciate that. It just wasn't enough to keep me going. I wish you could've met me halfway and I was able to predict the future.
Last time I cried over a guy was in 2007 (, foolish adolescent years-and you know those hormones don't play). Congrats *****! In 12 years, you did it. See You're special?
I pray that one day you will be able to see that you're worthy of every good thing that comes your way, that you would look beyond the things eating you up so that you can shine your light and bless the world with your gifts.
Lastly, I LOVE YOU. I love you from the bottom of my heart. And it's not the romantic type of love. I love you like you're my twin or brother. I just want to see you win, be happy, all of that. I truly do love you.
Btw, I miss the *** and your kisses so bad. I hope one day I can stop being a wussy around you so I can get my back blown out for fun. Also not gonna lie, I was hella salty when you went to the bar without me. but it's cool.
