Where did you go
I don’t even know
You just vanished from my life leaving a hole that nothing fills
Not work
Not friends
Not alcohol
You became my life
My routine
I looked forward to waking up because then I could text you right before you went to sleep
I looked forward to 1300 because you were just waking up to go to school or work
I looked forward to 2100 because you went to lunch and I could finally talk to you
I loved when you asked to video call because I loved just looking at you
Memorizing every feature of your face
The small beauty mark on your nose
The way your eyes looked so bright and full of love
Or even when you did your school work and I could just see so much determination in you
So much effort you put into everything you did
So I’d just stare at you
And enjoy that being the closest I could be to you for awhile
I miss holding your hand and squeezing it gently just to make sure you were still there
I miss randomly kissing your hand just because I loved to it
I miss kissing your nose because you’d have this cute little smile on your face while you turned red ever so slightly
I miss spoiling you in the stores because I knew you loved being able to have everything even if you didn’t want me to pay
But your gone now
Just left me
Because I didn’t look like I loved you
My eyes didn’t have the same light they used to
We didn’t really like the same things
While you enjoyed the little things and running around
I just enjoyed you
It wasn’t the places that we went that made me happy
It was being with you
Even if I didn’t smile as much
Even if I didn’t always laugh
I just liked looking at you
I gave you my whole heart
I poured everything into your cup
But then you just let the cup go
Why did you let go..