It’s been so long
I’ve built a wall so tall and strong

I have left my
Happiness behind
And lived a life of numbness

I want my old self back
I am afraid to let him out
Afraid of what others would think
How others would see me

I used to be larger than life
Now I’m nonexistent
Living in the shadows to not draw attention

I used to be the attention
I loved the attention
I loved life

Now I’m here not happy or sad
Just here

I want to tear this wall down
I want to break through this numbness
I want to be ME
I don’t want to care what others think

But for now I’m here, numb, not happy or sad
But I will come back, I have to come back
I can’t stay in the shadows forever

Look out world, I’ve been silent long enough!!!!
I want to be me!!