I’m just fine not thinking about
How I am suffocating
Being buried alive as we speak
In my own inadequacy
I am choking on my irrelevance
My easily forgotten presence
And the fact that when I speak
Even my own ears refuse to listen
I am a whisper
And a shadow
And a shifting silhouette
I am the figure in your eye
That is always in the corner
Shuffled about by the other visions
Vying for your attention
I am the speck of dust
That sometimes enters your retina
And you don’t know why you’re crying
But I do
I do
It’s because I’ve entered your line of sight
And you’d forgotten I existed
And your apologies are not needed
Because while you forgot, I didn’t
I stopped existing when your eye wasn’t upon me
Because I am in no way
A permanent fixture.
I shine in a temporary spotlight
With your hand upon my head
And when your hand wanders I disappear into the dark
I vanish with your love
As it is bestowed upon another
I die with every praise that leaves your lips, not for me
And never ever again for me.
Reality demands that I sink further into the nothingness I’m borne from
And I
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Into your shadows never to be seen again.