how is it
that i’m most creative
when i least want to create?

i fall down a pit
i get stuck
i get sad

but when this happens
i get inspired
i do my best work

what kind of sick irony
is the world playing on me?

i want to create
i want to make art
but i can only do so if i’m sad?

i don’t want to be sad anymore
it’s become too much for me
but i worry
if i’m no longer sad
can i still create?