How I feel
I feel empty and numb and angry at the world for taking away the one person that makes me happy
I feel so empty I throw everything in to work or just trying to stay around people but people don’t like me so I end up alone in my room
Numb because I either feel pain or I feel nothing at all
Angry because you were my source of joy in this world
I have stress dreams of you leaving
Over
And over
And over
And I can’t sleep from it
My nights are wishing I could just hold you but realizing I can’t so I cry myself to sleep
Hell I already am
I don’t sleep
There was a night I couldn’t fall asleep until 02
Dreamt of you
Woke up at 04
No alarm or anything I just woke up
So I barely sleep now
I wake up before the alarm
All I want is to just hold you
To feel how warm you are in my arms
To be able to smell the shampoo in your hair
Or the perfume on your neck
To be able to look you in your bright full eyes that we’re so full of love
I just want to hold you
Please
Just let me hold you