I wake up
Soaked in sweat
Shook from a dream
I won't soon forget
Nightmares reveal my deepest fear
That I am hated by all I get near
Why don't they think better of me
I'm just being what I know how to be
But for them, it's never enough
Maybe someday I'll see through the guise
And realize i'm not the one they despise
I'm the same as them, just a little different
But I feel the pain
Of self hatred inherent
It looks as if there's no escape
Panic grips me
It keeps me awake
If I slip back to sleep
I'll wake again just to weep