I wake up Soaked in sweat Shook from a dream I won't soon forget Nightmares reveal my deepest fear That I am hated by all I get near Why don't they think better of me I'm just being what I know how to be But for them, it's never enough Maybe someday I'll see through the guise And realize i'm not the one they despise I'm the same as them, just a little different But I feel the pain Of self hatred inherent It looks as if there's no escape Panic grips me It keeps me awake If I slip back to sleep I'll wake again just to weep