as you draw the value of rivers and the fickle nature of clouds and the real gift of sacrifice from my favorite book, i gaze down at the ghostly veins in this loving cabbage palm, and wonder how brown ale and stew is the height of the day and when it's enough and how.
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by a journey north i make all my old feelings warm and alert
i remember supposing my love was covered in frost at the foot of my favorite spruce trees gathering pins and needles
i know i fall for those of no sitting and those spurned by silent blessings
my deepest vaults have safe spots- difficult to find- easy to alight- surprised when beheld-
all chambers listen.
the only thing keeping me fast is that car and those country roads
this fastens me to your existence as i note your remarkable motion to the growing world, nourishing religion, and your experienced hands
how does a straightaway of field bring me to this loss?
the car is the only, holding me fast to my hopes battling inevitable sadness towards the unknown glides of our paths
i run far ahead because i want to see this future in front moving past falling back
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even over few solemn days i want to know how you could leave me here wrapped in ribbons of resplendent desire and worried stutters
the only unusuality about your silence is its absence (likely misunderstood) and such an absense is not voiceless - simply careless no-speak - neither sound nor kind listening is present in this kind of brooding
where are the flowing rivers of your words if not through the dark caverns in me? who else has been trading softness with you?
more often have i gripped the hard glass, the steering wheel, the stiff drink.
was there a glimpse into shocked discontent granting you sudden power to retract from all my easy benevolence?
the trouble is this - though you've been sweetly resistant, i've never professed hot beckoning until now
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when i turn into the sweetness of sick sheets and your sleeping hands i breathe in all the dew on your chest and smile realizing i'm the idiot waiting