it all came out at once.

an avalanche of emotions
so powerful it consumed me.

I did not experience pain until that night.

all I wanted was you,
to hold you, touch you, kiss you.

but you weren't there for me that night.

my friends say it was terrible
and that I was inconsolable.

I let everything out that I was holding in that night.

I wish it happened differently,
or not at all.

but I wonder what would have happened if you were there that night