I know that I can do this ..I can get back up again.. i’ve done it all before ..there’s no doubt I have the will. It’s Just the wondering inside my mind that won’t be still.. that’s what makes me second guess the feelings that i feel.. its the deciding which feelings are even real.

So as I wallow in the pain .. ashamed is how i feel.. I let someone down again ..a feeling that’s too real.. the person I let down was me and before, Id promised her ..I’d never let her down again but here we are.. you see.. Broken and alone again as Id said it would never again be