I raise my hand
Everyone else gets called on
Except me
I’m overlooked.
I walk up to them
I want to talk to them
They turn to face me
And go over to talk to their real friends.
I’m insignificant
I wish I could blame other people for
Ignoring
Me.
But I can’t
I’m worthless
It’s not worth it
To acknowledge me.
These other people are not to blame
These happy few
Who run the world
I am not one of them.
I envy them
Why are they so
Significant?
So worth-full?
But I don’t deserve your attention
I don’t deserve love
As much as a strive, I will never
Be worth it.
It’s not their fault
It’s not your fault
It’s my fault
I shouldn’t have been born.
Overlooked
Meek
Insignificant
Worthless
I wonder why
My mother did not cast me aside
The moment she held me
The moment she knew I was wrong
What were her thoughts
In that moment?
Why did she think
I should be kept?
I think she thought she was
Doing me a favor
When in reality, she was only
Prolonging the inevitable.
Because of this,
I know who I am
Because of this,
I know I am worthless.
No one else knows this, though
I am surprised
I thought my inferiority oozed through my pores
But it doesn’t.
I thought they would be able to smell me
But they can’t
They look at me
And they do not know.
Wow
It seems that
I am so insignificant
No one can noticed my worthlessness.
I am insignificant
But I am here
Doomed to walk this Earth
Alone.
It is my curse for living.