It's not you it's me
Is what the message said
And the assurance in your
Voice relayed the message
Well
But deep down I knew the
True meaning behind the missive
Was it's not me it's you
I wasnt taken back by it or
Surprised because I knew it
To be true
You started to look at me
Differently
And then you started
To walk away
I reached out to you
I tried to scream
But as the distance grew between us
All I could see was your silhouette
In the pouring rain
I stood there, that's all I could do
The water started to rise
Just beating on my chest
It became hard to breathe
Knowing what I've done
But all I could do was just
Stand there
You told me to be yourself but
What if being myself is not
Good enough
I wonder if you could see me
Like really see me
On my knees, trying to pick up
The broken pieces of what
Was left, of what the world
Didnt take
Desperately trying to mold
Them back together like a
Child figuring out her new
Favorite puzzle
Or could you see the tears
That have dried
I was desperate
Trying to hold on to happiness
For it became unfamiliar
Wondering how did this happen
Becoming a shell of who I was
Or who I am
Years of disappointment and
Deception took a toll
One that I couldn't afford
The sun chose to speak
But I turn the other way
Pulling the covers over my face
But at the same time
I promised myself to show
You
To show you something pure
Something real and kind
For you deserve that
I closed my eyes and
I wonder now if I failed
I saw a glimpse of your face
Of your smile
No I cant
I cant surrender to failure
I have to keep my promise
For you deserve that
Was your message accurate?
It was
It's not you it's me