One more letter stacks the pile
One more *******, useless letter stacks the pile
"Dear Family..."
It starts
    Last time it was "Dear Friends"
       And the time before that "Whoever the **** is reading this"

You look again at the pile
You look again at the pictures
You look again at the memories
         And you slowly start to put the pen down
        But then you look again at the mirror
        And you see it
        And the words come flooding back

"what's wrong with her?"
        Drip
"You'll never amount to anything!"
                  Drip
"why can't you just be like everyone else?"
                               Drip
"You're not depressed, you're just a coward!"

Coward
The word echoes
             echoes
                     echoes
                                  through your head
Another failure
Wow.
So typical of you.
Why do you keep proving them right?

This is the point where you've always stopped
          Feet at the edge
                      Ready to jump
                                    But also, ready to run away
But there's something different about this night
That made the words hurt more than it should have

Maybe it was your parents
To whom you are just a sick puppy
Maybe it was your friends
Or rather
A lack of them

Maybe... maybe you just had enough
Maybe you were
just
so
tired
of people telling you to
Hurry up and be "fine"

But something
Anything
Made you brave
For once.

The last letter falls to the floor
As your hand goes limp

I
Am
Not
A
Coward

You think
before you mind turns numb

The last letter does not start off with
"Dear family"
Or "Dear Friends"
Or even "To all you *******"
like #26

The last letter
Only has tears