Sitting here thinking what could I have done to do better. Satisfy your needs and be the woman you needed me to be when in reality? You should have knew better. We don’t share the same views and morals but what I thought we did share was the respect and love that you can’t receive anywhere else. Crying at 3am thinking to myself what the **** is wrong with me. Know your worth she said. You don’t deserve this he said. So what the **** do I deserve? What is worth ? And how much was I really worth to you? If I have to question the love then the **** was never real. Hoping and praying my feelings will disappear as quick as light in the winter time. & you wanna know where I really ****** up? Tryna be someone I’m not to please a ***** when the only one I should aim to please is the king above. I ain’t writing this out of despair or heartache this is straight anger and frustration or should I say confusion.. confused as to how I could stoop so low to put a man at his ultimate high.