The pain is real. It always stays and never goes. They all leave and it never does. The pain and darkness is more of a friend then anyone. You have to change for them to stay but pain stays for you are you. It came for you just being you. It's the only one who doesn't want you to change. It's the only one who likes you for you. You look around see them all leave. Lean in and let it wrap you in it's arms. You use to scared of it but now it's for best friend. You use to hate it but now you love it. That pain that ince controlled you now is the only thing with you. If it wasn't for it you would forget you even were alive. They all day it will leave and you will be okay one day but you don't want to be. Without the pain you would have forgotten who you are. You don't want the pain to leave because if it does you have no one left. You start to question if it will leave you to now. Do you really want it to stay? Of course you do because without it even you would lose yourself forever. So you ask and beg the pain today. maybe one day you will realize it will always stay and that someone else will to.